Hello? Is this thing on?

I’m torn…

There’s not much going on here anymore…

Part of me wants to just let it go quietly…

Part of me wants to share the following…

The last time I posted a weigh-in was April 28, 2009. The weight was starting to creep back at that time. Before school started in September 2008, I was able to say I’d lost 130+ lbs, by April FIFTY POUNDS was back.

At that point I was complaining how school was kicking my ass (it was only the third term), I didn’t mention it in the post, but I was also going through the the ‘negotiation’ process of divorce, I was also beginning the process of tweaking my practicum to allow for a more clinical focus.

Since then…

• I graduated on June 13, 2010 with a Master’s Degree
• The divorce was final on June 17, 2009.
• I don’t remember when I ‘officially’ quit WeightWatchers… but I haven’t set foot on a scale in MANY months.
• Judging by the clothes I’m wearing… it isn’t pretty.
• Judging by the way I feel… it’s even uglier. 
• I changed jobs in October 2009. The place I worked didn’t want to be tweaked.

I’ve been delaying it most of the summer, but I need to suck it up and walk back into the WeightWatchers meeting. I’m sure they’ll be nice, but I will be ashamed. I keep telling myself I will just go to a meeting in the town where I work. But arguing, if I go to my old meeting, I’ll be showing that I haven’t completely given up. The April 28th post says I weighed 387 lbs March 2006…

I think I may be beyond that.

I’m aiming toward going to my old meeting group Tuesday night…

I may not post the weight…

Maybe I will…

Is this thing on?

I wish I didn’t have to write this

It’s been over a month since anyone posted here and it’s been since December that I’ve made a post here, and that was a welcome post. The last time I made a substantive post was last JULY! I was feeling pretty depressed and then I re-read that post and it made me feel worse.
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