“You must feel sooo different!”

This is not an uncommon thing for me to hear these days… and it’s something I’ve been thinking about for the past two months or so. That’s partially why I haven’t posted anything in that time. But I’ve also been terribly busy. I finally wrote my comprehensive exam for my PhD, and have been spending time trying to get a sense of what ‘normal’ feels like. My mind has been racing with so many things — and I’ve often wanted to turn to the computer to put my thoughts into words. But it has taken me a while to do so… my apologies for taking so long!

That said, the whole idea of ‘feeling different’ has been on my mind for a long time — not only because I am reconciling what it’s like to be in a new body, but also because the comment “You must feel soooo different” is the most common thing people tell me these days. Over the past two years of my transformation, people tend to tell me 1) how great I look and 2) ask me how different I feel.

My response to both comments tend to be: 1) “Thanks very much, it’s been a fantastic experience.” and 2) “Yes, I feel great.”

But to be honest, I’m not sure if I feel ‘great’. I know I ‘feel’. But I’m not sure how that feels any different that how I felt as a 435-pound man.

Because two years ago, I’m not so sure I actually ‘felt’.

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