Power of Positive Thinking
09-17-09
I used to mopey, really mopey. And entirely pissed off.
When I was a young(er) lad in High School (I still am a young lad), I was annoyed, and I never even knew it.
It all stemmed from my hatred of (most of) school. I’m a smart guy, and never minded the work, but studying and schoolwork is probably the most insignificant part of school. As most every fat kid in existence, the teasing started at a young age. Of course I could fight back both physically and verbally, and I did. It didn’t help, and I resigned to the existence of the tormentors. Don’t feel sorry, I could have did something about it, but didn’t.
Enter high school: I generally had a lot of friends, and should have been happy. My classes were great and I prepping myself for a career. I was just ticked off.
* The ‘ruling class’ of preppies was fierce growing up in P-town. I don’t know why I couldn’t ignore them. Other people’s elitism drove me insane.
* I hated anything to do with gym, for obvious reasons, gym classes is best opportunity for torment.
* I would worry about random shit, and usually carry the whole world on my shoulders.
* I worked my ass off. Like 30 hours a week (legal limit in MI is 19 when you’re a student). I felt like I was doing something good, something tangible. Even though I was just a gas station clerk, I was f’ing good at it, I could run numbers in my head like no ones business and had the run of the place in a year.
* Not to sound cocky, I just felt like there were a bunch of people tried so much less hard as me and were rewarded so much more. I think this cause myself (and my friends to an extent) to get a sense of something owed, a sense of entitlement.
“I KNOW the whole world isn’t like this, it has to get better”
This thought, my mantra, doesn’t make things better. The sense of anticipation just made me despise my current position in life even more.
The world would get better in college, of course! But it didn’t. It actually got better before college, in the end of high school 
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See what this has to do with weight loss after the jump…
