So, I’ve gone up and down within 10 pounds for the last year plus and really have made little to no progress. My blood pressure is high and i am really starting to feel the effects of being overweight! I need to change, but somehow my discipline or will-power is sooo poor. I know it isn’t supposed to be easy, but I get so angry at myself for choosing the easy way or the lazy way through the day! So I weighed myself on Monday and I was back to 280 again so i watched what I ate for the most part this week and went to the gym twice. I feel good about this week and I’m sore and all that good stuff, but I have lost all confidence in myself to keep this up. I really don’t know what to do to really make the lasting change that I need. All I know is to try to work out every day and count calories every day and drink lots of water etc. So, I guess I just have to start over again and hope it takes this time. I wish I could figure out what is stopping me from making the changes I need… maybe it would be good to go and talk to a counselor or something to find out what I can do mentally! I HAVE to be healthier!!! I’ll check back in on Monday…
I fear change… I guess
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Todd, you are SO RIGHT to start off by asking “what am I afraid of?” That’s exactly the question, and not rhetorical at all. Something different holds each of us back, and it’s not willpower. Once we figure it out, willpower stops being such an overwhelming obstacle. You sound like you’re at a loss, so as the best thing I can do for you is this: I _sincerely ask you_, as a personal request, to listen to the first five episodes of the free podcast “inside out weight loss”, by Renee Stephens. You can look it up on google or iTunes. It’s not about what foods to eat, it is about FINDING THE CONFLICTS IN OUR HEADS. It’s a compassionate, intelligent, sincere program. Get in the car and go for a drive while you listen, so you’ll be out of the “scene of failure” and receive the message. I’m not being new-agey, but you have a lot to overcome, and I wouldn’t listen at home to be at my most receptive. This is what you need.
I know the feeling Todd, I’m right there with ya. This is hard, isn’t it?
Todd, I think most of us go up and down. I have been for many years and am tired of it as well. Your starting off on the right foot by getting back to the exercising. Do you track your calories with some sort of software? You might try it if your not. I use Nutribase Personal which has a learning curve but once you learn it is cool and in itself is motivating. It does take discipline however to enter the information but when you see what your really eating with the software you tend to watch it cut back more.
Exercise really helps to motivate also, I am trying to get myself to 5 days a week of extra activity. Bought a pedometer which shows my walking progress and is encouraging me to take the long way around work and to park further away in the parking lots. Funny how a little gadget can help to motivate you.
Keep it up, you’ll get there.
Kimo
Thanks for your kind words and support… I don’t know what is going to be different this time, but I have to try again and hope something will click. I will check out that podcast for sure, it sounds like it is just what I need! Thank you all for the advice and support!
Todd, I’m going through the exact same thing. Making those changes is extremely difficult, especially when stress gets to us. I’ll be checking out that podcast too.