Archive for February, 2009

Cross posted at antimattr.

In one of my favorite podcasts, Zencast, the host, Gil Fronsdal made a comment when speaking about meditation: “No one ever died from an itch”. He was talking about living with an itch while meditating, rather than scratching it. Not only to preserve your posture while meditating, but also to train your mind and your awareness, that you can deal with an itch or a compulsion without giving in. He brought up the value of that in the context of an addict-you can learn to observe your compulsive thoughts without having to act on them. Keeping this in mind has really helped me this last week with resisting the temptation to eat to deal with the stress I’ve been under. I’ve been trying to stay focused on work, but financial and work stress have brought on the compulsion to eat rather than deal with those issues. Instead of caving in, I’ve been focused on using the Beck Diet Solution to stay aware of why I want to lose weight, and I keep repeating “No one ever died from an itch” whenever I feel the compulsion to go stuff my face. So far, it’s really been helpful, along with meditation and exercise in management of my stress.

Posted by Rick on February 28, 2009

The Biggest Liar

02-26-09

This won’t win me big brownie points with the show, but I hate to see this happen on a show I really enjoyed.

On 2/25/2009, The Biggest Loser: Couples voted off Dane Patterson. He was later shown in the “see them now” section of the episode to have completed a marathon (The Arizona Desert Classic) with his wife at a time of 3:53. It turns out that this was all staged. About halfway through the race, he was transported in a van to the finish line. He was disqualified by the race officials and does not appear in the actual results of the race.

NBC knowingly lied about his accomplishment (a half marathon would still have been a huge deal for him) and it’s tarnished my opinion of the show. Below is a link to another participant of the race who also notes this cheating as well as a link to the results clearly excluding Dane Patterson from the list:

http://melancholysmile.blogspot.com/2009/02/we-did-it.html
http://www.arizonaroadracers.com/Results/desert-classic-races/dc-marathon2009.htm

Update (2/26/2009 – 9:55am)
Apparently there was further info from Dane’s wife posted in the comments on the “Melancholy Smile” blog listed above. The television critic for the Kansas City Star has taken up the banner to get to the bottom of this:
http://blogs.kansascity.com/tvbarn/2009/02/the-biggest-los.html

Posted by Charles on February 26, 2009

Cross Published on Rejected Reality

I cannot begin to explain to you how stressed I feel. The worst part, is there is really nothing I can do about it. We have NO extra staff anymore, so I don’t have anyone to work when I need a day off, much less when staff call in sick. They’ve tried, I tell them they need to take whatever meds with them and just sit on the couch. Because we need a body there 24/7.

I’ve mentioned the Sleep Study I did a couple weeks ago where it was determined I need a CPAP machine. I’ve got pictures of what I looked like with all the electrodes running to my brain…. it’s VERY SEXY! I go in on Monday night (March 2) for the ‘fitting’. The Doc told me my sleep disturbances were so significant, IF the machine does its job (and it should) it will be something of a panacea. No more meds for anxiety, depression, better memory retention, more energy for being active. AND… sleep is a necessary part of weightloss! Who knew?

Wouldn’t it be something if that little hummer helped my life make a little sense AND move in a positive direction?

Weigh-In tonight… didn’t stay for meeting. I had to do laundry. Yup, one more thing to wedge into my life. Wasn’t good… wasn’t too bad….

Anton, A drum roll please…

Starting Weight (March 7, 2006): 387.8 lbs.
Starting BMI: 51.2
Last Weigh-In (February 17, 2009): 297 lbs.
Weight Today (February 24, 2009): 297.2 lbs.
Current BMI: 39.2

Weight Change: +0.2 lbs
Total Weight Lost: –90.6 lbs

Posted by John T on February 24, 2009

I had a good week, not a great week. I only got two responses to my last post asking what I should do about having done nothing of my required list items to avoid the challenge punishment. They were both encouraging responses and I appreciated them very much.

However, I then went through another week of not doing program. I didn’t track. I didn’t stick to my points (I thought, but I still lost, so maybe I did). I didn’t get in three runs (just one). I… I…

Yeah. *I* didn’t do a lot of things. I didn’t take care of myself. I was in a semi-depressed mode all week. This past Sunday was “Geek Sunday” when I hang out with my friends and play D&D and enjoy the camaraderie. I didn’t though. I feel more disconnected from my friends each time we meet. I feel as though I’m only there to be a target of ridicule and jokes, they’re token straight-man.

I know I sound really upset. I’m not really, but I think I’ve made some poor choices, not in just food, but in what I do with my time. I waste SO much of my personal time. I waste so much time in general. I almost didn’t want to post this week only because I have a very strong procrastination gene and I have to fight it sometimes just to put up my weekly numbers.

Here are some bright spots.

  • I did my first lunch time workout in over eight months. I need to augment my running program with other stuff to continue losing weight, but not impact my running.
  • I signed up for a half-marathon. A HALF MARATHON. What the heck was I thinking? I’ve done the math several times and I know I can finish it in the allotted four hours in order to receive the finishers medal. In case you’re wondering where and when: http://www.rocktovictory.com/
  • I had a good performance review at work and should find out what, if any, is my merit increase for this year. Heck, I’m still employed and that’s more than enough (but a little more money is always nice).
  • In spite of all I didn’t do right this week, I lost 2.4 pounds. I’m still making better decisions.

I’ll get through this. Maybe having the half-marathon ahead will help me focus my energy on something else other than my (somewhat regular) pity party. I’m going to track this week. Time to get back on that too.

Starting weight: 319.0 lb
Previous weight: 271.6 lb
Current weight: 269.2 lb
Current loss/gain: -2.4 lb
Total loss/gain: -49.8 lb
Distance to 60: 10.2 lb
Distance to Doctor’s WW Goal: 19.2 lb

Cross-posted to WebCudgel.com

Posted by Charles on February 24, 2009

Week 1 Weigh-In

02-24-09

Well, this week was fine… just so busy. Not cooking much just yet, but soon i will make the time to start learning some easy stuff. I lost a pound and I can’t complain about any loss and I wasn’t really expecting it. I think I am going to try to post my exercise and calories on my blog each day… that can help to keep me more accountable. Thanks again to Charles for giving me a kick in the butt this morning about posting. He is really helping me in this.

Starting Weight (Feb. 16, 2009): 280 lbs.
Starting BMI: 39
Weight Last Weigh in: (Feb. 16, 2009) 280 lbs.
Weight Today (Feb. 23, 2009): 279 lbs.
Current BMI: 38.9

Weight Change This Week: -1 lbs
Total Weight Lost: 1 pound
Goal Streak: 1 week in a row
NEXT GOAL: 255 lbs. (24 lbs. to go)

Posted by rev.todd on February 24, 2009

I hate to lose.

02-22-09

First of all, I lost 1 more lb this week, making a total of 55 lbs lost. Also, I screwed up a little bit yesterday because I didn’t plan ahead. I had thought that the City Bowling Tournament was next weekend, but nope.. I woke up around 11:45 pm yesterday to a text message asking me if I was bowling. Whoops. I hopped in the shower really quick, then fixed a turkey sandwich and took a couple pickles with me to eat on the way to the alley. That was the last food I would eat until almost 8:00 pm. I was in dire hunger when all was said and done and was really tempted to just eat some “bowling alley food”, but I sucked it up and also sucked up about a gallon of water during the course of the tournament to combat the hunger. I survived! But it was tough.

Now to the actual tournament itself. For some reason, I love the city tourney. I’ve bowled in it for 3 straight years and have won the singles tournament the last 2 years and won the team event the 1st year and last year. The tournament takes place over 2 days with singles and doubles at one bowling alley and then the team event at another. I didn’t play in the team event this year though. The tournament just snuck up on me, and I didn’t get a chance to put a team together. I attempted to at the last minute yesterday, but it was a nice day outside and my normal bowling partners were on the golf course.

My buddy and teammate Moose wanted to bowl, so we signed up for the 3:30 squad. You bowl 6 games in this tournament. The first 3 games were doubles and the last 3 games are singles. Everyone was complaining about how slick the oil pattern was. I saw a lot of slickness in the middle, but I had some friction on the outside of the lanes that nobody else seemed to be taking advantage of (or couldn’t find). Moose and I both bowled like shit the first 3 games, but still put up a semi-respectable score of 1300 with our handicap. This was still 74 pins shy of the leaders though. Hopefully we’ll stay in the top 10 and get a little money out of it though.

Then in the singles, I bowled 163 my first game, still bowling like crap and frustrated because I had a line to the pocket, but my mechanics were way off. Now normally, after bowling 4 games of shittyness, I’d be so tired and fatigued that those last 2 games would be me goofing off trying new stuff and just hurrying up and trying to get out of there, but dammit! I have a title to defend. Besides, bowling doesn’t fatigue me anymore like it used to. Midway through the 2nd game, I have a score of 65 in the 5th frame and things are still not looking good. Then I decided that what I was doing just wasn’t working. I made a total adjustment in my game midway through the 5th game of bowling. I’m not talking about playing a different line or anything. It was like Tiger Woods just deciding to change his golf swing in the middle of a round. My change seemed like a stroke of genius as I turned that 65 into a respectable 193 score. If I could bowl a decent game in the 3rd game, I’d at least get my name on the leaderboard with my handicap.

Game #3 could have been the best game I had in my life. I started off with 4 straight strikes. In frame #5, I hit the pocket again, big explosion, but left a solid 10 pin…which I missed. FML. I didn’t let it bother me because I figured something out. In frames 6, 7, and 8, I had strikes. In the ever important foundation frame though, I lost my concentration about mid-way on my approach and instead of stopping, I continued the shot and it just didn’t have enough speed. I hit my mark and released the ball well, but not with enough speed. It hit high on the head pin and left a 3-10 split which I couldn’t convert. FML. I finished off with 3 strikes in the 10th frame. 10 strikes in 1 game is a new record for me, however, 2 open frames killed my score. My scorecard looked like this: X, X, X, X, 9-, X, X, X, 81, XXX for a 233 (273 with handicap). This gave me a 709 series with my handicap (I think). That was enough for 1st place with 1 squad left. However, there was still 1 slow pair of lanes running in the 3:30 squad that finished about 15 minutes after us. One of the better bowlers in the house, a lefty shot 729 scratch and I think he had and 33 pins total handicap to add to that, so he took me over in 1st place. Another lefty on the same lane beat me by 1 pin as well which put me in 3rd.

I was pretty frustrated (and very hungry) when I left the alley. I hate losing more than anything. I love competition. People complain in these tournaments about my high handicap and accuse me of being a sandbagger (jokingly). But the fact is that I thrive in competition. League bowling is competition to an extent, but it’s not the same as a tournament. When it comes tournament time, I have this extra gear I can get myself in. I don’t really get nervous in those situations or if I do, I can handle the pressure and still make good shots. The same is true for pool, poker, golf, whatever. I love competition. I see these people, even teammates that have a bad game or 2 in these competitions and then just start goofing around for the remainder. I was in this position yesterday, but instead of giving up, I pretty much revamped my entire game in the 5th frame of the 5th game and it paid off. If I had goofed off, my entry fee would have gone to some chump while I went home that amount poorer. Instead, I ended up making a decent profit just by not giving up.

Morale of the story: I hate to lose…unless it’s fat.

Posted by Rick on February 22, 2009

My First 5k

02-21-09

Cross Posted at Losing Inspiration

Well it has arrived and past. What seemed so long to get here was over in 33 minutes and 50 seconds. I had been training since december and worried about how I would perform in front of the real runners and along side my wife. We started the race a 7:30 am and ran the first mile in approximately 10.5 minutes followed by my first walk break for about 1.5 minutes. Hit the second mile marker at approximately 22 minutes and the third mile at just over 33 minutes. We did SO much better than we thought we would. My personal goal was to finish the race in under 40 minutes, which I thought would be really pushing it. I really thought I would finish in between the 41-43 minute range. I really had a lot of fun though and kept my cool and a slower pace and held myself back from trying to show off or passing. I cannot describe how happy I am and proud I am of my wife and myself. I enjoyed the whole experience, from the starting gun to the sprint I did for the last .15 mile of the race. I wanted to run across the finish line and did it! I was so into the moment that a friend of mine had to tell me that they actually announced my name as I crossed the finish line. So here are the numbers:
Total Runners: 1316
Total Men: 598
Over all place: 932nd
Of the men: 509th
My Devision: 64th
Clock Time: 34:34
Chip Time: 33:50
Pace: 10:53.3

I will be signing up for one next month:-)

Keep Moving!

If I can do it, anyone can do it!

Thanks for everyones support. I couldn’t have done it with out you.

Posted by Rick on February 21, 2009

Sometimes in mid stride I have to modify and adjust my goals. I had a wee bit of a tuff time recently because Saturday Feb. 7th was race day for the 100 miler that I was training for. I did not make it to the race. It was not that I couldn’t have made it, but I chose to modify my goals mid stride to make my life healthier. Coming up with my goals, and then modifying them or my game plan to achieve them is a constant and living process. I am always making new goals. As I set out to attain them I hit different obstacles or road blocks that bring about a necessity to make changes. Here are a couple of examples

I originally only wanted to lose around 90 lbs because I just didn’t think getting into the hundreds was possible for me since I was so used to being overweight. I kept with that goal but the closer I got the more I realized that the hundreds were possible so I modified my goal.
Many times I have had to change my goals in the middle of a race. I may have been shooting for a specific time to reach a check point in the race but saw that I was not going to make or that I was going to make it early. I modified mid stride and kept on.
I make small goals to help me maintain my weight but I find out that those things are making me gain or live a little unhealthier than I want. What do I do? I modify in mid stride.
Does this make sense. I am not saying that we give up on the original goals. I am just saying that as we seek to attain our goals we should always evaluate how we are doing and adjust as needed. Maybe our goals or expectations were unrealistic or maybe they were TOO realistic.

What has this looked like for you? Do you set goals to high or to low for yourself? Do you reevaluate you goals periodically? How do you modify in mid stride?

Posted by Rick on February 18, 2009

Posted on “You’re Not Interested” as well.

Well I did it.. This morning I weighed my self and I am in the 250s, at 258.6 to be exact! This also means that I have officially lost over 20 lbs since I started on 01/12/09.

I have not been in the 250s since probably 2005 and I am excited about that. I need to dig out some old clothes and see if they fit ;)

Also on Monday I ramped up my mileage, from 2 miles a day to 3 miles a day to coincide with moving my daily cardio from 30 minutes a day to 45+ minutes a day.

While I am excited about what I have done I am still troubled by one aspect. I have yet to be able to run 1 mile consistently, in fact since probably Thursday or Friday of last week, I am only getting in about half a mile of consistent jogging. My muscles are sore longer and its kinda an annoyance. I am trying to stretch properly but that is not good enough ….. Any thought from you runners out there(probably to busy running to chime in)?

Hears to another 20 pounds I can boast about when I am in the 230s!!!

Posted by Rick on February 18, 2009

reboot

02-17-09

I have some victories in the last few months and i want to celebrate those victories while adding some additional goals to them. The victories I have attained are not enough to get me where I want to be, and I realize that, but they are a few steps in the right direction. I have done a pretty good job in the last 3 months with checking in once a week, thanks to my friend Charles who keeps me accountable. There have been a few times that I have missed, but I never missed 2 weeks in a row. That’s one key that is going well. I also found some very successful tools such as counting calories that I will also continue to do. 1 big thing that i am going to add this time around is cooking at home rather than trying to lose weight eating out all the time. I bought some tools and pots and pans to do this and have some recipes that my girlfriend and I are going to try to learn how to cook. I think adding this to my current activities will help. I also have to work out more… that’s a big deal. Continuing to post each week while doing better at counting calories and working out as well as learning to cook and doing it more should help me move further in the right direction. I just can’t look at 3 months with little to no progress anymore without feeling down about myself. It’s time to start over again.

Starting Weight (Feb. 16, 2009): 280 lbs.
Starting BMI: 39

Posted by rev.todd on February 17, 2009