starting 2008 weight: 364
this week’s weigh-in: 358.6
total weight loss this week: .2 pounds
well, my laziness finally caught up to me. only lost two-tenths of a pound this week. it hasn’t helped that i’ve been sick most of these last few days, but i am not making excuses. honestly, i almost didn’t even post this because i’m just so sick of it.
i’m sick of trying to live up to this… what seems to be impossible, standard i’ve set for myself. i’m sick of feeling obligated to tell the world (by my own commitment) of my failure, and i’m sick of not having the intelligence, willpower, courage, whatever you want to call it, to do what’s right.
for crying out loud, it’s not like we’re talking about cocaine or some other hard drug… it’s one slice of pizza, one chip, one order of chinese food, one cookie, one decision…
and i know, what is considered as a habit to junkies (smoking, drugs) can be also be attributed to people who are obese and their food, but you know what, i don’t care about that. i should and can be stronger than that. i will not sit here and blame my failures on “addiction.” why? because i’ve succeeded in the past. big-time. it wasn’t too long ago i was losing between 6-10 pounds a week. it wasn’t a fluke, and i haven’t hit a plateau, so don’t come to me with that crap. i worked my tail off and watched every single calorie that went into my body.
that’s how you lose weight. you cannot do it without sweat and sacrifice. if you think you can lose weight and eat whatever you want and in whatever portion you want, you’re a moron who probably is making people who come up with these ridiculous diets rich. really, this is the most simple and true form of weight loss in the world; find out how many calories your body burns in a day, eat less than that (way less if you can, but no less than 1600 if you’re male), burn some calories on top of that by exercising (which in turn raises your metabolism so you lose even more weight) = weight loss. period, end of story. nothing else really matters. someone needs to pay me for that advice. all these people that talk about carbs, fat, sugar, organic, raw, vegan… it’s all built on the same principle i mentioned above. 3,500 calories is a pound. that’s all you need to know.
people want to tell me i set myself up for failure, because i made it too difficult on myself. “counting every single calorie is crazy” they say… well, for three months of my life it wasn’t crazy and i was achieving crazy results. i don’t believe for a second that it cannot be achieved again… i just need to find my way back to that point. somewhere along the line i became lost, i forgot about the fire within to change my life. the tinder and the wood (the knowledge) is still there… i know what i must do, i just need to find the motivation (fire) to do it again.
so i guess the question is…
anyone got a match?
[cross-blogged at ...love is the movement]
personal trainer, Mikki. I get 2 sessions per week as a part of the Weight Warriors challenge. Let me tell you, she is wonderfully brutal. She has me doing exercises that I had never tried before. Guys, I did ‘assisted’ pull-ups! I’ve NEVER been able to do one, so I hadn’t tried the assisted version. Another exercise that I was shocked I could perform, triceps push-ups. Ooh, both burn GOOD!
