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tomorrow is a big day for me. it’s also a sad day.

it’s a sad day, because all of the pumpkin muffins, cinnamon muffins, and molasses cookies we have in our house are being taken away. don’t worry mom, ryanne is going to take them to work… so they’ll get eaten.

we’re getting rid of them, because i’ve decided that it’s time. it’s time to recommit to my life change (read: diet). i’ve been saying for the last month “i’ve lost 57 pounds since i started my diet.” i have been idle for four weeks. it’s time to start forward progress again. i know that i’ve said a few times that it’s time to get back on the train, but i never went through with it. this time will be different. i am not quite sure how or why… but it will. i feel it.

i really believe that i underestimated how difficult it would be to stay motivated to lose weight. i really can’t even begin to say just how on fire i was for the whole process when i started back in august. it made so much sense, it felt so good, and honest to goodness it was easy. it was really easy at first. i didn’t expect that. i thought it would start out difficult, and get easier as time went on. well for me it was the exact opposite.

so tomorrow, i’m going to weigh myself (moving weigh-in day to monday), and go from there. i really don’t want to exercise in the cold, but i think i am going to force myself to at least try it. i’m also lightening up on my expectations a bit. i’m going to go back to 2,000 calories a day, and just two miles a day walk monday - friday. i know it can be seen as a cop-out, but i really feel as if i just need to get a couple wins under my belt.

so let’s see how this goes. join me on my re-commitment journey. after all, i’m going to need all the help i can get.

[cross-blogged on loveisthemovement.com]