12 May
My first confessional
Forgive me, fatbloggers, for I have binged. This is my first confessional after beginning this thing more than two months ago.
Last night, I had an ice cream bar and Chips Ahoy. Not an obscene amount, but it was enough. Weird part? I walk out on the back porch and throw some of the cookies into the back field with my “non-cookie” hand, even while getting in one more with the other hand. I’m a sick, sick man.
In order to at least stay on program, I’m going to need to do a ton of walking/exercising this weekend. That should get my extra points back in the ballpark. This will be my penance. Oh, that, and not losing any next Tuesday. Guess we’ll find out how all of that works into it.
Bigger picture: I experienced an emotional-eating cycle tonight. I’ve been able to break free from some of that lately, but apparently not this time. Some issues in my life right now just proved a little bigger than I was. I probably didn’t consume as much junk last night as I have in my mind that I did, but psychologically this is a set back for me.
I’ll be fine, though. Time to go walk.
Posted by Doug on 12.05.07 at 6:17 am
The first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem.
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Posted by Paul on 12.05.07 at 6:17 am
Those damn urges to binge are the hardest part. I know, standing there in the kitchen, that I shouldn’t eat those cookies. But for some reason, the craving just over powers all logical though, and I get angry that I can’t have the cookies, and I get angry that I have to diet at all, and I convince myself that for the next 5 minutes, I just don’t care about my diet, and I’m going to eat those damn cookies, because I’m an adult damn it, and I can do what I want.
I get myself so worked up that I forget how shitty I’m going to feel for eating them in about 5 minutes. But for that 1 minute I spend eating them… pure bliss.
Too bad the bliss really isn’t worth it, since I have to spend the rest of the day pissed off at myself.
This happens, and I wish it didn’t, but my advice is to not let it get you down TOO much. Try to stop yourself before you’ve consumed a whole bag of cookies for example. I find that two (large) cookies will satisfy my craving enough to get by without completely screwing up the diet.